When I started working again after the summer vacation I were filled with motivation and were excited to meet the new kids. Now the new kids are all settled and all of a sudden we're in the middle of September.
My joy didn't last that long though and soon the motivation went away. The reason, we're getting a new kid. Don't get me wrong, I love kids but when don't have the room for one more and when all the reasons we can think of are just denied and we're met with "This is how it is, like it or not." It's just draining. It's like I can't influence my own working situation - no matter what I say or do.
That's true to an extent though - while I may not be able to change the outer circumstances; more kids, not being allowed to get new stuff, not allowed to get a temp for the day in case of sickness among us. I CAN control one thing - my attitude.
I can choose to see everything in black - and I do sometimes. But I can also choose to focus on the kids and why I'm doing the work I do. Why I love the work I do. It's not easy to do that at the moment though.
I've often said - I got no motivation to do that right now. But the more I think of it, isn't that something I provide myself - with the way I think. I can think "Ugh not now" or "I'll just do it and be done with it".
Sure - motivation can be taken away - but only if I allow it to be.
God bless,
Nilla
Friday, September 16, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
I love you
Hey!!
I've been thinking a lot about those three words and the effect they have.
I'm not one to show a lot of emotions, even though I'm a very emotional person.
I'm a very private person, I don't share my inner thoughts and feelings with just about anyone.
I don't think I've said I love you to my dad til this year. It's not that I didn't love him before.. but I think it's because now I feel comfortable with saying it.
Isn't it weird though.. how three words can mean so much just because just those three words happens to stand next to each other. If you take a away the "I" and the "you".. the word "love" in itself is very powerful. But it's when it's added with "I" and "you" that it gains even more strength and meaning.
This year God has taught me what it means to love someone, to look past flaws and things that can annoy and see the person. I've been able to do that in the past in some ways but not totally until now. And for that I'm forever thankful. Through that the love I get back is amazing.. I never thought someone could love me and be able to not only show it but to put it into words.
It's easy to forget to say it, show it and take it for granted. I think most of you have heard the song "If tomorrow never comes" (here sung by Ronan Keating) I don't like playing the "what if" game but let's do it.. just because.
What if.. something happens.. do your family know that you love them?
Do your friends? Have you told that special someone lately?
If not.. what's stopping you from telling them?
Just wondering..
God bless!!
Nilla
I've been thinking a lot about those three words and the effect they have.
I'm not one to show a lot of emotions, even though I'm a very emotional person.
I'm a very private person, I don't share my inner thoughts and feelings with just about anyone.
I don't think I've said I love you to my dad til this year. It's not that I didn't love him before.. but I think it's because now I feel comfortable with saying it.
Isn't it weird though.. how three words can mean so much just because just those three words happens to stand next to each other. If you take a away the "I" and the "you".. the word "love" in itself is very powerful. But it's when it's added with "I" and "you" that it gains even more strength and meaning.
This year God has taught me what it means to love someone, to look past flaws and things that can annoy and see the person. I've been able to do that in the past in some ways but not totally until now. And for that I'm forever thankful. Through that the love I get back is amazing.. I never thought someone could love me and be able to not only show it but to put it into words.
It's easy to forget to say it, show it and take it for granted. I think most of you have heard the song "If tomorrow never comes" (here sung by Ronan Keating) I don't like playing the "what if" game but let's do it.. just because.
What if.. something happens.. do your family know that you love them?
Do your friends? Have you told that special someone lately?
If not.. what's stopping you from telling them?
Just wondering..
God bless!!
Nilla
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Why worry?
This is something I've been thinking about a lot lately. I've been known to worry, overthink, overanalyze and some of it to no end. It always ended with me reading into things way way too much and it wasn't other people makeing me insecure. I did it to myself - with some help from a certain someone. (satan) He was feeding me thoughts like "Are you sure he/she meant it that way? It could be like this you know.." and "What.. no hug.. no kiss at the end of the text.. does he really love you?"
Instead of thinking about what he (my boyfriend) really said, I could think about what he didn't say or do and that had me worry. For NO reason at all - how messed up is that??
This passed Sunday I got a text from my boyfriend saying "went to the ER after a EP-attack, will text as soon as I can" I just started to pray, asking God to be with him, the doctors and everyone involved. And I felt such peace. Of course I waited for an update, but I didn't get one. I went to bed, a bit uneasy.. but I thought to myself - God is in control. I fell asleep and I checked my cellphone first thing - nothing. I thought "They kept him overnight" but I didn't hear anything at all on Monday. But I didn't worry, I didn't freak out like I could have done. I prayed again and left it all with God.
I checked the phone this morning and still nothing.. but I got a text from him around 12am.
With the help of God I was able to stay calm, not worry and freak out. Sure I did check my cellphone every hour just in case I had missed something. But that as minor compared to what it could have been.
Me trusting God has been a long journey - and it's far from over. But I've taken a few steps forward - and that makes me smile and I'm sure God is smiling and maybe thinking - finally! =D
Isaiah 41:13
For I am the LORD your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Since God has promised us to take care of us, to take our hands and walks with us. Then why should we fear, He is there, by our side. He even says: "not to harm you"
Note that this isn't a promise that we will never go through times of problems or rough times. But He has promised to be with us through the rough times, something I think that we tend to forget way too easy. We're very quick to say "God where are you?" instead of "Ok, God - help me, strengthen me and help me to remember that You are here with me".
This is something that I need to learn and remember... and like they say - the first step is to recognize the problem.
Feels like I've just rambled here.. and if I'm talking just to myself.. so be it. =)
God bless and take care!
Love,
Nilla
Instead of thinking about what he (my boyfriend) really said, I could think about what he didn't say or do and that had me worry. For NO reason at all - how messed up is that??
This passed Sunday I got a text from my boyfriend saying "went to the ER after a EP-attack, will text as soon as I can" I just started to pray, asking God to be with him, the doctors and everyone involved. And I felt such peace. Of course I waited for an update, but I didn't get one. I went to bed, a bit uneasy.. but I thought to myself - God is in control. I fell asleep and I checked my cellphone first thing - nothing. I thought "They kept him overnight" but I didn't hear anything at all on Monday. But I didn't worry, I didn't freak out like I could have done. I prayed again and left it all with God.
I checked the phone this morning and still nothing.. but I got a text from him around 12am.
With the help of God I was able to stay calm, not worry and freak out. Sure I did check my cellphone every hour just in case I had missed something. But that as minor compared to what it could have been.
Me trusting God has been a long journey - and it's far from over. But I've taken a few steps forward - and that makes me smile and I'm sure God is smiling and maybe thinking - finally! =D
Isaiah 41:13
For I am the LORD your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
Since God has promised us to take care of us, to take our hands and walks with us. Then why should we fear, He is there, by our side. He even says: "not to harm you"
Note that this isn't a promise that we will never go through times of problems or rough times. But He has promised to be with us through the rough times, something I think that we tend to forget way too easy. We're very quick to say "God where are you?" instead of "Ok, God - help me, strengthen me and help me to remember that You are here with me".
This is something that I need to learn and remember... and like they say - the first step is to recognize the problem.
Feels like I've just rambled here.. and if I'm talking just to myself.. so be it. =)
God bless and take care!
Love,
Nilla
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Being a bottle
If we think really hard about it, we're all bottles. Bottles just like these
Granted we all don't look like that though. Some are taller, some smaller, some might be darker, green maybe.. but we're still like bottles. Now maybe you wonder what crazy person is behind this blog... but bear with me just a little longer.
In what way are we like bottles.. well we can all fill our lives and ourselves with lots of different things. Some do it with music, some with friends and family.. some with books etc. The list can be made long! Question is.. does it also fill us up? Or have we surrounded ourselves with things that bring us down, drain our energy and leave us almost empty? No matter how big the bottle is, sooner of later the bottle will be filled and it starts to overflow. What is it in your life that you spill over onto others? Is it good stuff or is it bad stuff? I'm going to leave it up to you to decide what's good or bad.. since it's sort of relative.
I know that when I'm so full that I start to overflow and spill onto the people, I want it to be good stuff and to me that is: joy, love, trust, care and I want to be so crystal clear that I want them to see God in me. In me and through my life. I know that I'm not the best person around.. but I do the best I can and with the help of God.. I can move mountains.
What do you fill your life with? Who do you fill your life with?
Something to think about...
God bless,
Smurfina aka Nilla
Granted we all don't look like that though. Some are taller, some smaller, some might be darker, green maybe.. but we're still like bottles. Now maybe you wonder what crazy person is behind this blog... but bear with me just a little longer.
In what way are we like bottles.. well we can all fill our lives and ourselves with lots of different things. Some do it with music, some with friends and family.. some with books etc. The list can be made long! Question is.. does it also fill us up? Or have we surrounded ourselves with things that bring us down, drain our energy and leave us almost empty? No matter how big the bottle is, sooner of later the bottle will be filled and it starts to overflow. What is it in your life that you spill over onto others? Is it good stuff or is it bad stuff? I'm going to leave it up to you to decide what's good or bad.. since it's sort of relative.
I know that when I'm so full that I start to overflow and spill onto the people, I want it to be good stuff and to me that is: joy, love, trust, care and I want to be so crystal clear that I want them to see God in me. In me and through my life. I know that I'm not the best person around.. but I do the best I can and with the help of God.. I can move mountains.
What do you fill your life with? Who do you fill your life with?
Something to think about...
God bless,
Smurfina aka Nilla
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Welcome!
Welcome to my corner! =)
I'm a 32 year old woman from Sweden. I started this blog mainly as a fun thing but I'll also share things close to my heart, as the title sort of gives away.
Personality wise I'm thoughtful, caring, loving, shy (at times). I like to read, listen to music, watch movies, cross-stitch and spend time with friends, my boyfriend and my family.
I work as a kindergarten&daycare teacher, which is something I love a lot. Yes it's hard at times but it's very rewarding and fun as well.
I'm also a woman who believes in God, which is something that hopefully will be reflected in this blog as it's part of who I am.
Again welcome and hope you'll stop by again!
God bless,
Smurfina
I'm a 32 year old woman from Sweden. I started this blog mainly as a fun thing but I'll also share things close to my heart, as the title sort of gives away.
Personality wise I'm thoughtful, caring, loving, shy (at times). I like to read, listen to music, watch movies, cross-stitch and spend time with friends, my boyfriend and my family.
I work as a kindergarten&daycare teacher, which is something I love a lot. Yes it's hard at times but it's very rewarding and fun as well.
I'm also a woman who believes in God, which is something that hopefully will be reflected in this blog as it's part of who I am.
Again welcome and hope you'll stop by again!
God bless,
Smurfina
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